Subjects: Life 生涯

What is the opposite of ambition? Resignation, weakness, happiness, contentment, or…? It’s always at this sort of juncture of choosing between a career and living for the moment that you wonder what’s truly important. Some people say that the two are not mutually exclusive: those are the lucky ones. Perhaps the problem lies in the fact that I’m neither rich nor poor, and I’m not too materialistic, yet I do have certain wants. There’s no major incentive to strive to the top, yet there’s always the nagging feeling that I could perhaps achieve better, and the fear of underperforming is always there. Being alone by myself right now makes it even more agonising. I’ve been brought up to be able to think for myself and make my own decisions, yet to me, having support for my decisions is important. I just hope graduation will make this uneasiness go away. Only three months more to go!

I guess it’s not hard to figure out that my ‘blogger’ status is more of a semi-hobby than a passion :p The truth is ever since I graduated from university in Singapore the desire to pen my feelings doesn’t come as naturally anymore. Even though I set up this pretty nice-looking (I hope!) blog, frankly I’m more interested in the design and implementation (Drupal) of it rather than the actual content. I could spend hours tweaking this functionality and adding this plugin and that but frankly the actual usage doesn’t justify the effort taken to implement. ^^

Nevertheless, I think the start of my Masters course in Sydney should warrant at least a couple of posts so here I am, more than a month since I reached here. To be fair to myself, I didn’t actually get internet connection till the end of last month (thanks Telstra, geez)..