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My level of obsession has hit unearthly levels

Posted 2009-05-01 (金) 午前11:14 by terra

When I found out Adam Lambert had hit the bottom two this week I felt sick in my stomach. I hadn’t even watched the episode because I got my news through the grapevine.

I’ve never been an American Idol fan; never will be. This is the first season that I’ve been following dutifully and the only reason that got me into it was when I first heard his ethereal version of “Mad World” by accident when I happened to turn on the telly that day and thought to myself, oh my god this guy, he’s pushing the limits of what’s supposed to be a popularity singing show for the masses.

Subjects: Film, Television & Anime 映像, Music 音楽

Mood: Philosophical Musings, Raves and Rants, Sombre

Tags: Adam Lambert, American Idol

Rockin' good 60s music that make me feel good

Posted 2009-04-02 (木) 午後9:03 by terra

Felt in the music mood today so am re-living some of my favourite live 60s songs (not that I was born in the 60s though).

Woodstock (Live version) by Joni Mitchell
One of my all time favourite songs.

Subjects: Music 音楽

Mood: Gratifications, Philosophical Musings

Tags: Bob Dylan, Jimi Hendrix, Joni Mitchell, Led Zeppelin, music, Rolling Stones, Woodstock, YouTube

Introversion, feelings of regression in Singapore

Posted 2009-03-27 (金) 午後11:31 by terra

There’s something about being back in Singapore that’s brought out the worst case of shyness and introversion in me.

I’m naturally introverted and there’s nothing wrong with that. But lately, the hesitation to speak up about how I really feel about things is debilitating and it really sucks.

The funny part of it all is that I felt I was a completely different person in my months overseas. I think being in Australia and Japan nurtured extraversion in me. And as a friend pointed out, it’s perhaps because no one knew me in Oz that I could let out the inhibitions within myself.

Coming back to Singapore it’s like I’m feeling the effects of culture shock, which is strange because I grew up here thus I ought to know better. However, I googled, and apparently there’s such a thing called reverse culture shock where the subject who’s been overseas for a period of time finds it hard to re-adapt to her country of origins.

Subjects: Life 生涯

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: career, culture shock, Fukuoka 福岡, healing, introversion, Japan, Singapore, Sydney

久しぶりの日本語ブログ

Posted 2009-03-26 (木) 午後11:57 by terra

久しぶりに日本語でブログを書くのは確かに微妙です。
日本語能力は段々下手になってしまう気がします。（いや、事実です。）本当に残念。
 （日本語の上手なあなた方が私を許してくれますか？）

先月、時間がいっぱいあるのはわかっていても、勉強せず、うちにごろごろして、怠けた生活を送ってしまいました。
それでも、楽しかった。
貧乏でも、よかった。
 このまま楽な生活が続けられるといいなと思っていました。

でも、現実は厳しいです。
今の世界では、
仕事がないと金がない。
金がないと人は困る。
 気の毒なことに、仕事があると自由はなくなる。

金は自由の天敵です。

先週、やっと新しい仕事を見つけた。
今週の月曜にスタートして、息が付けないくらい忙しい毎日。
この仕事が好きじゃないわけじゃない。
 ていうか、楽しい部分はあることは否定できない。

でもペースはちょっと速すぎるとお思う。もう少しゆっくりできるといいな。

文句はこれまでです。

仕事を受けるのは自分の選択ので、自分の人生に責任を持って生きるべきです。

人生は長い。これを考えるとちょっと怖い…

Subjects: Learning the Japanese Language 日本語勉強, Life 生涯

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: Japanese

Choosing between ambition and ?

Posted 2008-08-24 (日) 午後3:39 by terra

What is the opposite of ambition? Resignation, weakness, happiness, contentment, or…? It’s always at this sort of juncture of choosing between a career and living for the moment that you wonder what’s truly important. Some people say that the two are not mutually exclusive: those are the lucky ones. Perhaps the problem lies in the fact that I’m neither rich nor poor, and I’m not too materialistic, yet I do have certain wants. There’s no major incentive to strive to the top, yet there’s always the nagging feeling that I could perhaps achieve better, and the fear of underperforming is always there. Being alone by myself right now makes it even more agonising. I’ve been brought up to be able to think for myself and make my own decisions, yet to me, having support for my decisions is important. I just hope graduation will make this uneasiness go away. Only three months more to go!

Subjects: Life 生涯

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: ambition