Mood: Philosophical Musings

2nd last day at work

Today was my second last day at work. It was so sweet of my colleagues to organise a lunch (company-side) and party (client-side) for me. I have really enjoyed working with all of them and hope to keep in touch. If any of you are reading this, feel free to comment and leave your contacts here too!

Subjects: Work 仕事

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: goodbye

The Tragedy of an INTP

The burdens of being me:
…an ever-pervasive sense of impending doom (I tend to overthink things sometimes).
…perfectionism (it’s a disease).
…potential dilettanteism: once the subject no longer facinates me.
…reluctance to emote; the fear of being emotional: until stress accumulates, leading to emotional distress and outbursts.
…embarassment when being praised (WHY?)
…often misunderstood because of difficulties in expressing myself.
…hating to have to stick to convention and being wrongly thought of as being arrogant as a result.

Subjects: General

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: INTP

Bindings

Neuroticism and its greater counterpart, insanity, must be the results of their environment. Is it possible to turn insane, being drowned in a pool of silence, where the only signs of disburbance come from the annoyances of small talk? Chatter chatter [how is the weather] chatter chatter [how was lunch], and so on.

A restless mind in captivity, seeking to break from its bindings. But the attempt to escape is rendered futile by circumstances unforeseen and beyond control. Certainly, the escapee-aspirant is not without blame — indecisiveness is a factor of futility.

Each soul is formed from a myriad of characters, one of whom is called ‘Loser’. In a fashion that is bitterly ironic, Loser’s personality dominates and shuts away Optimism and Optimism’s friends into the soul’s asylum. Ever so frequently, the characters with hope call out from the asylum’s cells. The calls are the cries of freedom-desired. Loser is physically-free yet trapped by its loneliness and tormented by the calls of its prisoners. It needs companionship but can see no other way to communicate this need. Entrenched in its subconscious is the want to control - everything - and its selfishness finally leads it to the conclusion that if companionship is beyond its ability to earn, the enslavement of others is the best alternative.

Subjects: General

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: loser

Space Elevator

Arthur C. Clarke’s one of my top 5 favourite sci-fi authors, and my favourite book from him would have to be . Set in both imaginary past and the not-too-distant future, it is the tale of two visionaries, a king and an engineer, who envision and put to science fiction reality, the towers of babylon.

And we are now a further step away from this being a mere dream if Bradley Edwards, Director of Research for the Institute for Scientific Research, is to come closer to realising his vision.

An article two years ago that I read from SPACE.com, “The Space Elevator Comes Closer to Reality”; and its follow-up just a few days ago, “Space Elevator: Momentum Building”.

Subjects: Books 書物, Technology 技術

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: Arthur C. Clarke, physics, science fiction, space elevator

Emotions in writing and Wave Particle Duality

It’s so hard to write about emotional states and momentary feelings, because the process of reflection - that transpires while putting thoughts to words - alter the very subjects to begin with. I see this as analogous to Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle, a consequence of wave particle duality in physics, in which the act of observation alters the state of a quantum system.

How is this so?

In order to write, we assume that our subjects possess definitive states; in reality, they fluctuate with every word that is spoken or heard, every sensation received from interaction with the environment, every thought process that is made. The additional dimension of time allows us to objectively assess and rationalise these states and feelings with our belief systems. The resultant evaluation is likely to be radically different from the original subjects that are of a transient nature.

Subjects: General

Mood: Discoveries & Relevations, Philosophical Musings

Tags: Heisenberg, physics, wave particle duality