Subjects: General

23 years old

Getting older day by day.

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations

Tags: birthday

酒を飲み過ぎてはいけない。酒に酔って普通にしたくない事をしてしまう。後悔でももう何もできない… ”泣”

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations

Perfection is sometimes a pain...

So my dad says to me in an email sent from the airport before he leaves for London (in a plane which he believed was a direct flight but turns out it is not but he gets upgraded to first class anyhow isn’t that so cool while I’m stuck here at 3:10 AM typing this when I should be sleeping since I have to work tomorrow but somehow I don’t think that this rant has anything to do with the title of the email because) and I believe this is so true considering the turn of events regarding a particular dvd set that I purchased today. Thus I formally adopt this as my new signature in my email from today until whenever I tire of it.

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations, Learnings & Quotations

Bindings

Neuroticism and its greater counterpart, insanity, must be the results of their environment. Is it possible to turn insane, being drowned in a pool of silence, where the only signs of disburbance come from the annoyances of small talk? Chatter chatter [how is the weather] chatter chatter [how was lunch], and so on.

A restless mind in captivity, seeking to break from its bindings. But the attempt to escape is rendered futile by circumstances unforeseen and beyond control. Certainly, the escapee-aspirant is not without blame — indecisiveness is a factor of futility.

Each soul is formed from a myriad of characters, one of whom is called ‘Loser’. In a fashion that is bitterly ironic, Loser’s personality dominates and shuts away Optimism and Optimism’s friends into the soul’s asylum. Ever so frequently, the characters with hope call out from the asylum’s cells. The calls are the cries of freedom-desired. Loser is physically-free yet trapped by its loneliness and tormented by the calls of its prisoners. It needs companionship but can see no other way to communicate this need. Entrenched in its subconscious is the want to control - everything - and its selfishness finally leads it to the conclusion that if companionship is beyond its ability to earn, the enslavement of others is the best alternative.

Subjects: General

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: loser

Actualities

In a few more hours, it will be back to the mundane working world for me where I will begin my new job. The oh-too-short-break was fun while it lasted. It’s ironic that I feel a less rested than when I was working. Most breaks are meant to catch up with much-needed sleep; whereas in my case, I slept a lot less than I did when I was working: irregular hours i.e. sleeping at 6am in the morning etc.

It was Father’s Day yesterday (which ended 1.5 hours ago) as well as my friend Haja’s wedding ceremony. Met up with my friends from university at the reception; took a few pictures which I will be posting - whenever I get to it.

After that it was dinner with my paternal grandparents for a second Father’s Day dinner. It was at least the fourth dim sum meal I had this week. Man do I need to go on a diet soon (and no, the nuts and chocolate doughnut from Starbucks earlier didn’t exactly help, not to mention the Oreos I had in a moment of greed). My dad couldn’t make it for this dinner, reason being that he had to have his usual game of golf with his church friends today.

Subjects: General

Tags: wedding