What is the opposite of ambition? Resignation, weakness, happiness, contentment, or…? It’s always at this sort of juncture of choosing between a career and living for the moment that you wonder what’s truly important. Some people say that the two are not mutually exclusive: those are the lucky ones. Perhaps the problem lies in the fact that I’m neither rich nor poor, and I’m not too materialistic, yet I do have certain wants. There’s no major incentive to strive to the top, yet there’s always the nagging feeling that I could perhaps achieve better, and the fear of underperforming is always there. Being alone by myself right now makes it even more agonising. I’ve been brought up to be able to think for myself and make my own decisions, yet to me, having support for my decisions is important. I just hope graduation will make this uneasiness go away. Only three months more to go!
