General

23 years old

Getting older day by day.

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations

Tags: birthday

酒を飲み過ぎてはいけない。酒に酔って普通にしたくない事をしてしまう。後悔でももう何もできない… ”泣”

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations

Perfection is sometimes a pain...

So my dad says to me in an email sent from the airport before he leaves for London (in a plane which he believed was a direct flight but turns out it is not but he gets upgraded to first class anyhow isn’t that so cool while I’m stuck here at 3:10 AM typing this when I should be sleeping since I have to work tomorrow but somehow I don’t think that this rant has anything to do with the title of the email because) and I believe this is so true considering the turn of events regarding a particular dvd set that I purchased today. Thus I formally adopt this as my new signature in my email from today until whenever I tire of it.

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations, Learnings & Quotations

Bindings

Neuroticism and its greater counterpart, insanity, must be the results of their environment. Is it possible to turn insane, being drowned in a pool of silence, where the only signs of disburbance come from the annoyances of small talk? Chatter chatter [how is the weather] chatter chatter [how was lunch], and so on.

A restless mind in captivity, seeking to break from its bindings. But the attempt to escape is rendered futile by circumstances unforeseen and beyond control. Certainly, the escapee-aspirant is not without blame — indecisiveness is a factor of futility.

Each soul is formed from a myriad of characters, one of whom is called ‘Loser’. In a fashion that is bitterly ironic, Loser’s personality dominates and shuts away Optimism and Optimism’s friends into the soul’s asylum. Ever so frequently, the characters with hope call out from the asylum’s cells. The calls are the cries of freedom-desired. Loser is physically-free yet trapped by its loneliness and tormented by the calls of its prisoners. It needs companionship but can see no other way to communicate this need. Entrenched in its subconscious is the want to control - everything - and its selfishness finally leads it to the conclusion that if companionship is beyond its ability to earn, the enslavement of others is the best alternative.

Subjects: General

Mood: Philosophical Musings

Tags: loser

Actualities

In a few more hours, it will be back to the mundane working world for me where I will begin my new job. The oh-too-short-break was fun while it lasted. It’s ironic that I feel a less rested than when I was working. Most breaks are meant to catch up with much-needed sleep; whereas in my case, I slept a lot less than I did when I was working: irregular hours i.e. sleeping at 6am in the morning etc.

It was Father’s Day yesterday (which ended 1.5 hours ago) as well as my friend Haja’s wedding ceremony. Met up with my friends from university at the reception; took a few pictures which I will be posting - whenever I get to it.

After that it was dinner with my paternal grandparents for a second Father’s Day dinner. It was at least the fourth dim sum meal I had this week. Man do I need to go on a diet soon (and no, the nuts and chocolate doughnut from Starbucks earlier didn’t exactly help, not to mention the Oreos I had in a moment of greed). My dad couldn’t make it for this dinner, reason being that he had to have his usual game of golf with his church friends today.

Subjects: General

Tags: wedding

New Workplace

Visited my new place-of-work yesterday, where I am to be a book/journal editor come June. It was a handover visit since the position is a replacement. It completely matches my preconception of an editorial office. There are books everywhere and mounds of completed-and-sealed manuscripts packed into boxes or lying under the desks; not to mention incomplete ones. The people were warm and friendly. I am excited, albeit a little anxious about my abilities to handle this new position.

Subjects: General

It's a Fool's World

When you watch a John Woo film…
you see how shallow the world is
and it makes you relax, right?
Coolness is in full force, even with
a strand of nose hair poking out.
It’s that kind of manly aestheticism.
Only idiots do the cool,
dangerous stuff.
That’s why they’re cool.”

—Preview for Furi Kuri Episode 5 “Bura Bure”
Furi Kuri Episode 4 “Furi Kiri”

Subjects: General

Mood: Learnings & Quotations

No Meds

I hereby declare:

Today will mark the last day I will ever (hopefully…) have to take thyroid medication again.

Subjects: General

Mood: Declarations

Tags: hyperthyroid

Emotions in writing and Wave Particle Duality

It’s so hard to write about emotional states and momentary feelings, because the process of reflection - that transpires while putting thoughts to words - alter the very subjects to begin with. I see this as analogous to Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle, a consequence of wave particle duality in physics, in which the act of observation alters the state of a quantum system.

How is this so?

In order to write, we assume that our subjects possess definitive states; in reality, they fluctuate with every word that is spoken or heard, every sensation received from interaction with the environment, every thought process that is made. The additional dimension of time allows us to objectively assess and rationalise these states and feelings with our belief systems. The resultant evaluation is likely to be radically different from the original subjects that are of a transient nature.

Subjects: General

Mood: Discoveries & Relevations, Philosophical Musings

Tags: Heisenberg, physics, wave particle duality

Myers Briggs

According to the Myers-Briggs-Jung test in SimilarMinds.com:

INTP - “Architect”
Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population.

And a facinating write-up in INTP.org which describes perfectly the personality that I am.

Subjects: General

Mood: Discoveries & Relevations

Tags: INTP

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